What am I Waiting for?

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I'm waiting for something. 

I wish I knew what that something was. 

I just know there's got to more to life than going to school and work. 

Work is frustrating because I am anything but a people person. I don't really enjoy talking to people. I used to when I was younger. But then I realized that the older I got, the more people judged me. If you just keep your head down and keep quite it's much easier to go unnoticed. Easier to avoid judgment. So, having to deal with 100's of people a day gets...stressful.  

School is boring, and I haven't learned anything new so far. It is actually really frustrating paying for classes that are a joke. I just want to learn about things that I care about. Not even that, I just want to learn things that aren't taught to a second grader. I want to write about subjects that make people uncomfortable. I want to compete with others for the highest grade. I want to be challenged. 

In high school I knew this kid who would sleep through every single one of his classes. I asked him one day why he was so tired all the time. But he told me that he didn't sleep in class because he

was tired. He slept in class because there was absolutely no reason why he needed to be there other than the fact that he needed a good attendance grade. I, of course, pointed my nose up and assumed that he was just some dumb delinquent that was probably going to fail the class. That next week the boy slept right through all of his classes as usual. I was curious about what he had scored on the end of the week exam so I glanced at his paper when our teacher handed them out. Get this, he scored 100%. It wasn't an easy assignment, either. He ended up passing the class with an A.

I never really understood it until now. I am almost 100% positive that I could sleep through all of my current classes and still manage to pass my classes with a B or higher. 

I know it's only one semester and I shouldn't be complaining...but I am so bored. I can't even handle it. I'm ready to go ahead and start a career. I'm tired of doing assignments that in the end mean nothing. They are things that as soon as they are graded I will be throwing away. 

I want to have a deadline to meet. I want to make a difference to something that matters. Not just another student that is about to have another paper graded. 

I want to do math problems that take up an entire page. I want to debate real issues. I want to write poetry that makes people cry. 

I guess I do know what I am waiting for. 

I am waiting for some kind of reason to be here. 

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My freedoms are clearly stated in the Bill of Rights. Being from Russia and all, I feel as if I should care more about my 'freedoms' as an American. In all honesty...I really don't feel strongly either way about it. I am happy about the rights that we were given, but I guess I wouldn't really mind if they took a few of them away.

Freedom of Religion, Press, Speech, Assembly and Petition. 
I can see where the first amendment would be the most important to some people. I think that if I had choose one that I am most effected by, it would be this one. I enjoy being able to choose what I believe in. I'm not religious. My family made me go to church when I was little. But around the age of ten I had decided that going to church and living for God didn't make you a good person. What makes you a good person is doing the right things without having to have motivation to do so. Killing someone shouldn't classified as a 'sin.' It should be classified as something wrong. It should be classified as a morally wrong act that will negatively effect people for the rest of their lives. I'm getting distracted.
I enjoy the fact that I can say what I please.
(With a few exceptions...SIDE NOTE: don't run into a building and yell fire. Won't end too well for you buddy. Unless you realllllly like Orange is the New Black )

In reality though, if we suddenly changed the bill of rights and took out the freedom of speech, I don't think I would mind. So I can't curse in public because it's offensive to children? Yeah I can understand that. I can't walk up to someone I don't know and tell them that they are a living abortion? Yeah, I totally get that. No big deal. I don't really talk in public anyway.
Petitioning? Yeah...I don't have time for that, but thank you to all the people that do.
Thanks for helping with he whole racism/slave thing, that was actually really annoying.
Thanks for making women (a little) more equal.
Thanks for making sure people (kinda) accept gay people.
(For all those protesters out there, next goal should be cheaper college, cool...thanks.) 

Right to Bear Arms. 
I was talking to this guy from England recently and when I asked if him about America, he told me that everyone is obsessed with the fact that we can have guns.  Yeah I don't care about guns. If you took that right away from us it would not effect me one little bit.

No Quartering Soldiers
... I guess i'm glad I don't have a random stranger living with me. Quite honestly though, I, again, wouldn't mind it too much. This person just fought a war for me...
Yeah he can sleep on my sofa and eat my Campbell's chicken noodle soup. 

Unreasonable Search and Seizures. 
If you have nothing to hide, then you have nothing to fear.
If someone had a bomb at my school and some police officers came around and wanted to check my backpack, I wouldn't argue. They're just doing their jobs. If some police officers thought I was doing drugs and they randomly wanted to check my house, I wouldn't deny them access. I know that I don't do anything illegal, and after they look around they will know that as well. If I can help make a police officers job easier, i'll do it.

Right to Due Process of Law, Freedom From Self-incrimination, Double Jeopardy.
I guess I won't care about this one until it effects me in some way. I am happy that if I got in trouble for something I could get a fair trial.

Right to a Speedy (and public) Trial.
Hm...how do I feel about this? I am grateful that I won't sit in jail for years over something that I might or might not have done. Yeah that's pretty cool.

Right to a Trail by Jury in a Civil Case.
This could go either way... I am not sure if I really trust average American citizens enough to make an educated opinion. On the other hand, having one person decide everything on their own would be even scarier.

Freedom From Excessive Bail/ Cruel and Unusual Punishment.
I can see where this would be nice. I wouldn't want my judge to be like, oh you were speeding, here eat a bucket of spiders and we'll call it all good.

Other Right's of the People.
This covers a large grey area of our rights. So thanks, yeah this is cool for all of those nasty little in-betweens.

Powers Reserved by the States. 
This one I really enjoy. Basically, it is saying that every state can make up their own laws. Good for them. Arizona, you want to make it illegal for a donkey to sleep in a bathtub? Alright, that's cool. You go ahead and do that.

So that's where I stand on my freedoms. I don' really care all that much. I am grateful that they are there, but it would kill me if they weren't. 

Body Language

Body Language can tell us a lot about how someone is feeling.  

For instance, if you see someone with their arms crossed, that could mean that they are feeling a bit closed off at the moment. If you see someone rolling their eyes, that could mean that they are frustrated or put off by something around them. (Or they're listening to Donald Trump ramble on about immigration) Most body language is quite self explanatory and is easy to read. 

However, there is one specific type of body language that everyone seems to have a hard time reading correctly. That body language is the body language that signals that someone is attracted to you. 

Trying to figure out if someone is flirting with you is like trying to figure out which way the wind is blowing. You can lick your finger and stick it in the air, but let's be honest, you have no idea if the wind is coming from the North, South, East or West. It's the same with dating.

 'Well they're being really nice and they seem to like me, but what if they're just really friendly?' 

Well here are some things that will help you diagnose your current relationship. 

(Side note: If you're reading this and thinking, 'hmm... I do that all the time to a specific person', perhaps you should dig a little deeper into your current feelings towards whomever this person may be)

Well there are many things that people will do when they find another person 'attractive.' A big one for guys is that they will sit up straighter and puff out there chest a little bit. Guys are sort of like animals, they want to look as big and manly as they possibly can. It goes all the way back to those theories you read about in third grade about humans coming from apes. I can neither support or deny that theory, but I can tell you this. When a male gorilla wants to attract a female gorilla he stands up and looks as tall and as big as possible in order for her to see him as a first choice partner.When a human male is attracted to a female he will very    subtly sit up straighter to appear taller. See any similarities?  

While men try to point out their masculine features, women try to pull men's attention to their more feminine features, such as their cleavage, their hair, their legs, and even their neck. 

Girls will either play with their hair or cross their legs, or sometimes they will tilt their heads in order for the male to notice their delicate neck.  

However, not every sign is as hard to read and a subtle head tilt. Some of it just requires a little attention to detail. 

Do they look you in the eye when you're speaking? 

Do they laugh at your jokes when no one else does? 

Do they randomly touch your shoulder or arm?

 Does she giggle and fidget with what she's wearing?

 Does he fix his clothes and hair constantly when he's around you? 

Most of the time, if there's a mutual attraction you will be able to tell almost immediately. 

Here's a weird thing to look out for! Wrists! Most people keep their wrists tucked towards them as a sign of vulnerability control. Schizophrenic people will walk with their wrists and palms faced completely away from people just for that little bit of extra protection. So, you will notice once you get to know someone better and they start trusting you a little bit more they will start showing you more glimpses of their wrists.   

Watch where their feet are pointed! Studies have shown that you can tell what a person is attracted to by which way their feet are pointed. If they are directly pointed to you that means that they are fully engaged into what you are saying or doing! 

Watch their eyes! If a mans pupils are dilated that is a great sign that he is attracted and interested in what he is currently looking at. Same goes with girls! 

Watch their movements! If they are mirroring you, that is another sign that they like you! 

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Watch girls lips! When girls are attracted to you they will try to pull your attention to what they want you to notice! If they bite their lips or touch their mouths a lot they might be secretly asking for you to kiss them. (BUT MAKE SURE IT NOT JUST A COINCIDENCE! YOU JUST MIGHT GET PUNCHED IN THE JAW IF YOU'RE NOT CAREFUL.)